Every morning when I drop Cam off at kindergarten she turns and looks back when she opens the door and waives bye and it breaks my heart. You would think after 1/2 semester over I wouldn’t feel this way but there is just something so sweet and scary about her walking in by herself. At first she looked back at me everyday like she was unsure which completely broke my heart. Now she is more confident and it almost hurts as much that she is not scared any more.
A couple of years ago Rachel my oldest went out on a date. We drove them to the movies and dropped them off. I wanted to watch them walk inside to make sure they made it safely. He opened the door for her to walk in first and I cried my eyes out. Knowing that one day she wont need me to help her in the door anymore. A man will one day take her heart and I will be second.
When I was growing up whenever I just needed to be alone there was power in closing the door to my room. It was then separate from the rest of the house. My own little world with my stereo. I could listen to what I wanted to and just lay on my bed and dream about how wonderful it would be to grow up and have a door to my own house.
I broke up with a guy in the driveway of my house when I was in high school. I got out of the car and shut the door behind me. He never talked to me again. I felt like if I hadn’t shut the door we may have been friends after that.
Forgiveness opened doors for me when my dad passed away. It changed me into a person I had always wanted to become. No more bitterness or carrying the weight of the world.
Photography has opened doors for me. I have met wonderful people and have made the best of friends. Relationships that I am proud to have and thankful for everyday.
Doors can be a powerful thing. Doors can open up new avenues for you or close you out. Doors scare me sometimes. Bob Marley sang, “When one door is closed, don’t you know, another is open.” Thanks Mr Marley…sometimes I learned that the hard way.
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